52 SPOKEN WORDS

23. YES | with Elayne

WOMEN+WORDS SERIES

The spoken words of 13 different women I have connected with and the story of their spoken word from God.

These stories are to showcase the power of faith and how God whispered to them and they listened wholeheartedly in His plan.

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Please meet, Elayne Bulosan, who I met through the event and planning industry. She invited me to an event seminar. We talked a bit about our journey of being in that industry and how we got started. I felt there was more to her. We were both new into the industry that we were both still learning. We connected mainly on social media and did our first wedding together in October 2016. Again, work was the center of our relationship, that we didn't get to fully share our life story until we sat down recently at her new job. We were able to connect on a deeper level. She shares her spoken word of YES. It's her hard journey, where she had to completely just surrender her love to God and just say YES to whatever path He has given her. 

Four years ago, my life changed in a way that no young person, let alone a nineteen year old college student, should ever have to go through. I've seen countless doctors, all with the same puzzled face as they tried to figure out what was wrong me. Never-ending late night emergency room visits and sadly getting used to being hooked onto IV’s.They all kept on jumping to the same conclusion: “There's a high possibility that she has cancer. Let's talk about her treatment options. First, the large mass under her jaw needs to be surgically removed immediately.” Eventually, one amazing doctor was able to put all the pieces together. First diagnosis: Kikuchi histiocytic necrotizing lymphadenitis; Lymphadenitis for short. A mass, the size of a softball under my jaw, was removed two days after my nineteenth birthday. I thought the nightmare was over, but it was just the beginning of the rest of my life. Sadly, the illness I had, mutated into something much worse. My rheumatologist called me on my way to school with a tone that no heartbreak could ever compare to. “Your ENT doctor was able to remove the entire mass under your jaw. The mass is benign.” What a relief! At least I thought it was. My sigh of relief was cut short with “However, with your most recent labs, we’ve discovered that you have an auto-immune disease called Systemic Lupus Erythematosus. Basically, your body is attacking itself. I would like you to schedule an appointment so that we can discuss your treatment options in person with you and your parents.” My naive mindset kept thinking “Oh man, I'm going to die.” I had to stay positive, not only for myself, but for my family as well. I remember my parents coming to see me after my surgery with smiles pasted onto their faces, but with heartbreak in their eyes. I didn't know I was bandaged up around my head down to my neck at the time, because boy was a high off of whatever the doctors gave me; at least that’s what I assumed it felt like. All I know is that I felt light weight, as if I was on a cloud. I guess the way that I was bandaged up triggered those emotions. 

During the past few years, I've been in and out of school. I never really got to work a typical college job because it would be grueling on my body. Imagine, a young person, but feeling like a little old lady all the time. My joints were always in pain, and there were days where I felt like I  would have a hard time breathing from being fatigued so easily. Keep in mind, I felt like that 24/7. I was only aware of having Lupus at the time. I didn't even know I was anemic too. During my journey to a healthier me, I lost my best friend in 2014 due to an asthma attack. From 2014 up until early 2017, was a dark time for me. Not only did my best friend pass, friends from my old church left, and then I had to make the toughest decision to leave church as well. I grew tired of feeling alone and I just really needed to leave. I didn't properly leave in the way that I should have, but I was depressed and couldn't think straight at the time. I left behind memories and amazing little kids, as I was the children’s Sunday school teacher at the time. I did my very best to love these tiny humans as much as possible because a lot of them were foster kids that lacked the love and attention they craved. 

Fast forward...

Every year, I choose a word to live by for the year. God placed the word GROWTH in my heart for 2017. In March 2017, an amazing cafe posted on their social media accounts that they were hiring. I never really had the chance to be young and have a typical college job. I got out of my comfort zone and took the leap of faith by applying. Long story short, I got the job. God blessed me with the community that I've been longing for what felt like an eternity. I get to work with some of the most amazing and encouraging coworkers that I get to call friends. It's still 2017, but God decided to place a new word in my heart for this new season of my life. The word is YES. Yes to finally working. Yes to new friendships. Yes to rekindling old friendships. Yes to falling in love with Jesus all over again. Yes to so many more opportunities that God will bless me with along the way. On this new journey, I know there will be ups and downs, but I can't wait to keep saying yes to God. 

 

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

-Jeremiah 29:11