48. PURIFIED with Phoebe Grace
This is the extended series of spoken words shared by women around the world, who have been selected or interested in sharing their stories and word from God. It's to showcase the power of faith and how God manifested their lives in the most powerful and loving way.
Phoebe is someone I met through social media until I came to find that she had some relation to my husbands family. She messaged me one day to give her some insight on her social media and I loved that she asked because that simple initiative to ask, really showed me her character as a person. I skimmed through her social media page and was inspired how she uses her faith to talk about her whole life and most esp her past, and how she was able to rise above and share her wisdom onto others. What I loved most about her, was her passion to work her life around God. Meeting any kind of woman on fire for God, is truly inspiring, these women create this other side of knowledge and their own relationship with God, that for me, I want to gain and learn something from them. Her story is heart warming because it is something we can battle time to time. She reminds us that we are PURIFIED through God who replaces our pain and brokenness we may have lived or live through.
Phoebe is a wife of 8 years to her best friend. Together, they have an almost 6 year old boy, and an 8 month girl, and a fur baby terrier mix. She currently homeschools her son and works from home sharing all the ways God has changed her life through her health, marriage, parenting, and her past. She is passionate about anything Jesus, food, desserts, music, organizing, overcoming and art.
In a season where to-do lists are more full than usual, end of the year reflections can either bring joy, disappointment or both, it is really important to reflect, remember and focus on the cliché of Jesus being the “reason for the season.” Even when I encourage others with truths, I often forget them for myself. Other voices of this world can be very noisy (including my own), but I know at the end of the day, I am the one who chooses what to allow in my mind, heart and soul. As I was still, I knew I had to do some reflecting and remembering of my own, and these words came to me:
The end of the year has brought about so many emotions for you. Feeling blessed and grateful, yes. But lately, you’ve been focusing a lot on what you haven’t been able to do, what you don’t have, and your past hurts that are magnifying those existing negative emotions even more.
I know it’s hard. I know because of the traumatic, abusive hurt from your upbringing, you sought approval and love in all the wrong places and in all the wrong ways. I know you continue to struggle with that. Your past has left many wounds that sometimes still open today. Those wounds have not only hurt you, but have led you to hurt others. They have made you believe that you must work and earn love...that you have to [continuously] earn forgiveness...that you have to continuously make up for it all.
But you don't have to. It was all paid in FULL. You've already been forgiven, once and FOR ALL.
Stop working. Stop earning. Stop striving.
You are completely purified because of True Love, because of Jesus. His flow of red made your life white. You see shattered, but He sees whole. You see broken, but He sees beautiful.
Your past. Your mistakes. Your failures. Your pride. You are purified from all of it!
This doesn’t mean you become an abuser of His grace. But it does mean that you realize the magnitude of it, receive it, and don’t to try overtake it as if your works mean more than what He already did on the cross.
Wow. Me, trying to overtake His work as if it wasn’t enough?! I believed it was enough, but I needed to be reminded so I can live it out like I did.
I hope that this season, new year, and years to come ahead, we can remember these truths. That my shame and your shame now serve a purpose, because His shame served His purpose. It means that there is nothing more and nothing less that you or I can do to change His love for us. We don’t have to work for it or earn it. He simply wants us. We are purified daughters of the King.