40. ENOUGH | with Erike Winanda
This is the extended series of spoken words shared by women around the world who have been selected or interested in sharing their spoken stories and word from God. It's to showcase the power of faith and how God manifested their lives.
We share a story about Erike Winanda, 25 years old working as a teacher assistant for Grade 2 students. Her parents are not believers yet, but God used her previous Christian school and church to grow her faith. She loves do hand-lettering and creating handmade things. She shares spoken word of "enough".
Throughout my whole life, I've been thinking about my purpose.
Why am I created? Do I have a purpose? Do I have something useful so I can live well? Do I have a specific talent just like what other people have?
I've grown up thinking that I am not worthy to be loved.
I've grown up thinking that I don't have anything to offer - I am not even good at one single thing!
I've grown up not liking myself.
Not only I don't like myself, I also don't appreciate myself just like how I supposed to.
At one point in my life, I even hated myself because I don't have anything to be proud of. I just felt that I'm worthless and don't have a purpose.
Things started to change when God spoke to me through many things. He clearly showed me that I am worthy. He created me fearfully and wonderfully to do His will in this world.
He changed me little by little, day by day, moment by moment.
I started to think differently,
I started to see myself differently,
I started to look into what's inside, not on the outside.
Is 'having a lot of friends and being known' that important?
Is 'having so many talents - drawing, sports, playing music, a good public speaker -' matter so much?
Is 'being number one in everything' that important?
I've slowly began to appreciate myself more, to love myself more, to love God more.
God said that He sees what's inside, He sees my heart.
Not what I do, not what I achieve, not what I have.
What I do, achieve and have is not important if my heart is not connected to Him.
All of it doesn't matter if I don't have Him in my heart.
All of those talents don't matter if I don't use it to glorify Him.
I started to feel that I am enough.
What I have is enough.
And to have God, even though I don't have everything else, is enough.
It's more than enough!
What people say about me doesn't matter, as I know what God says about me.
How people treat me doesn't matter, as I know how God sees me.
I am enough.
You are enough.
We are enough.
His grace is enough,
His presence is enough,
His guidance is enough,
HE, God Himself, is enough.
To have a wonderful and caring Father is more than enough